I’ve been sat on my sofa with my laptop for a good 30 minutes now doing everything possible to avoid writing.
Seriously, what kind of awful blogger am i?!
The truth is I’m the kind of blogger who has seemingly lost all motivation and inspiration to write. It’s weird, it’s not like I don’t enjoy it, as I sit here now typing this up I’m remembering how much I bloody love it, but I’m just finding it so much harder to dedicate my time to it.
The turning point for me was October. The clocks changed, the evenings got darker, and it suddenly felt like the days had almost halved. I started to feel as if I had less time to fit everything in, and unfortunately blogging tended to fall short.
With a full time job, a flat to keep clean, food to cook, a social life to uphold, Christmas presents to search for…(I could bore you with the entire list of things on my mind but I won’t right now), it’s so difficult to making writing a priority.
I know what you may be thinking: ‘You do this voluntarily, no one is asking you to do it”, and you know what that’s totally right. Whenever I see people moaning about how much blog work they’ve got to do I tend to think the same. The problem is that I unfortunately don’t have the option to make my blog my priority. And so many of you reading this will know exactly how frustrating that feels!
Sadly, I don’t think my manager would be too happy if one day I just said “Sorry, staying at home today to catch up on writing”. IF ONLY.
I’m picturing it now…a cold winter morning with a hot chocolate, a big duvet, just writing away. P E R F E C T.
I’m also tired. SO tired.
Since the clocks changed I’ve started falling asleep at half nine in the evening. So if we do the maths I get up at 6:30am, leave the house at 7:45am, get home about 18:00, and fall asleep by 21:30.
That’s just 4 hours and 45 minutes per day to fit in everything I need/ want to do.
And honestly, what is this adulting stuff we’ve got ourselves into. Having the spend the evening sorting out electricity bills or working out how to save money on the food shop. Seriously low on my what I want to do priority list, however has to be super high on the what I have to do list.
Sometimes adulting means making super boring choices right?!
I wondered whether I was the only one feeling this way, but I was super relieved (sorry everyone) to find I wasn’t alone. When I put out this Instagram post explaining how I was feeling I was inundating with people saying how much they related.
I also read a post by the lovely Kayla from thatkaylagirl.com that I related to like nothing else. She too talks about feeling the lack of inspiration and how difficult it is to work around a full time job now the evenings are getting darker. Instagram photos become a hell of a lot more of a challenge when you’re trying to flatlay at 4pm on a Saturday and suddenly before you know it it’s pitch black.
So, what am I going to do about this super lull?
I’m going to listen to my mind, my body, and my gut and realise it’s ok to stop.
If inspiration isn’t coming, wait for it because it will come. The more you force things to happen the worse it will get and ultimately, you’ll end up in a worse position than when you started. You’ll get run down (hello lingering cold I can’t seem to shake), burn out and then motivation will be even harder to regain.
I wrote a piece a while back about how important taking breaks is, especially if you’re lacking a bit of creativity. You can read it here.
For me, something that really helps when i’m feeling a bit low or i’m lacking in inspiration is looking forward to the little things and focussing on the positives. At the moment of course I am absolutely over the moon that Christmas is on the way. It also gives me a topic to write about. I know I’m super excited so I can use that as motivation.
I would love to know how you overcome some of these challenges, and whether you’re feeling the same way at the moment, so let me know!